Thank You 2010!!

In a few hours 2010 will be over and 2011 will begin.. before that happen I would like to reminisce / list down some big events that happened to me this past 365 days..

I graduated. I took the board exam. I passed the board exam. I enrolled for a masteral program. I had my first job. I learn so many things in life. I became a better person.

Thank you 2010! You have been so good to me. I hope 2011 will the same as you.

Lord God, all of these wouldn’t happened if it weren’t because of You. Thank you for all the blessings! I love you!

-Ila

I’m still alive!

Dear Blog,

 Sorry for not updating you for almost a month. My life suddenly became a fast-paced carnival ride. I enrolled for a masteral and at the same time I got myself a job. All these time-consuming-energy-sucking activities wanna drive me nuts. I’m kinda missing my old routine.. with all the time in my hands. Now, I barely can’t do and go anywhere I want because of my busy schedule. I don’t have a day-off. Seriously.. I don’t have. I hope I will be able to cope with all the stress life is giving me.

That’s mean!

I don’t trash talk. I always wanted to though I’m not gonna lie about that but I can’t. Everytime I’m about to say negative things about someone openly.. it’s like the super moral part of me prevails so I end up not saying anything. I’d rather keep those kind of opinions to myself but sometimes share some of those opinions to persons I know having the same sentiments as I’m having. I’m not a saint nor I’m trying to give the impression that I’m a good person because trust me I’m not good. I’m so flawed like everyone else but not in this kind of manner.

I also find it rubbish in a twisted sort of way. What’s the satisfaction you’ll be getting if you trash talked? I mean, I think you’ll only get THE satisfaction if the person you’re trash talking about would be pissed and trash talk to you back. So my suggestion is instead of trash talking why not address your concern to the person himself/herself. In that way not only will you be able to get off the hate off your chest.. you’ll also be able to save your dignity.

and by the way, the phrase “no offense” doesn’t make any statements less offensive.

I’m A Bitch

bittersweet

I want to help.. I actually am capable of helping them.. but I can’t, I’m not allowed to. I feel so bad. I kinda wish I never knew about the situation in the first place. *not giving details about this*

Speaking of feeling bad, I’ve been feeling bad a lot lately..

here’s the thing, I’ve been turning down A LOT of job offers. It’s not that I don’t like to work or anything. I want to but not now.. I’m still working on my admission to grad school. I think its a pretty decent reason for turning down offers right? but in a way.. I can’t help not to feel guilty. I know a lot of people who are looking for jobs right this moment and here I am bashing offers that are knocking on my door.

I’m now a Gleek!

aaAAAHHHHH!!

I downloaded the “Britney/Brittany” episode because I get a lot of raving news about it and I don’t wanna be left behind(if you know what I mean). Just an FYI, I never had watched a full Glee episode before because Rachel reminds me of a person that I basically don’t want to remember. So anyway..

I love Brittany.. she’s hilarious!!! I haven’t seen her before or I just never notice her presence from all the every-now-and-then Glee video clips I encounter on youtube so it was new to me seeing this blonde stereotype character with an emotion-less looking face and a monotone speaking voice. It’s weird because despite of all her “annoying” traits her character is very likable.

They’re baaacck!!!

The scandal, the gossip, the action and the coolness are back. Gossip girl and Chuck both in their fourth season returns. Gossip girl started last week while Chuck aired their premiere episode last monday. Thank God they’re finally back. Atleast there would be something that I’ll look forward to evey week. They totally saved me from going nuts. I swear if they haven’t like started yet.. maybe after a week or two I would lose my sanity due to excessive boredom.

Here are some few stills from the mentioned shows.

I’m really starting to love Chuck and Blair. If you’ve been reading my blog, you’ll know that I’m a huge Serena-Nate fan since the beginning but last season when they FINALLY hooked up then Dan and Jenny came in to the picture.. err.. idk they started to annoy me.

What’s the name of this guy again? I only know him as the “Prince”. Anyway, I like this scene a lot. The fairytale/shoe cliche itself is funny but Blair’s comment about her shoe being a “hell a lot more expensive than a glass slipper” is hilarious. Blair’s lines are always striking and funny.

Awkward. This is like a double slap in the face to Serena. Okay, maybe triple slap with the whole baby Milo thing. By the way, who is Juliet? She may not be gossip girl right? — or is she? Well, I still don’t think she is.

 Bartowski!! I surely did miss Chuck’s constipated look everytime he flashes on something.

And also Casey’s groan with his annoyed face each time he sees Chuck and Sarah kissing. Haha!

Sexting! This is effin’ funny. Morgan is insane. I was laughing the whole time. Casey doesn’t get the whole sexting thing and Sarah’s freaked out reactions were priceless when Chuck(who is really Morgan using Chuck’s phone) thinks they’re sexting.

 CHARAH(Chuck and Sarah) love!

I find it serendipitously amazing that both shows are produced by Josh Schwartz, are both on their fourth season and they have a character named Charles that they address to as Chuck.

and maybe i’ll meet tinkerbell

If the place between sleep and awake exist, the place where everything and anything is possible.. most if not all of us would be there or would want to be there. I want to be there right now, even for just a moment.

No one knows you better than yourself.. or atleast that’s what they say. I’m not feeling that right now. I feel lost. I feel like i’m becoming someone else each passing day. I’m losing me. How should that suppose to feel? because seriously.. i don’t feel anything. It’s like having a tooth extraction. The dentist gives you anesthesia then he pulls the tooth and while he’s pulling it you hear this crackly sound. Logically, you know that it is excruciatingly painful but you don’t actually know that because you’re under the anesthesia and you don’t feel anything. Maybe that’s what I’m feeling right now–like I’m under the influence of anesthesia. That’s good.. for now. Because even with tooth extraction it only takes time before the anesthesia subside and you’ll start to feel the pain.

Happy September to all!!

Happy septemBER the second!! Nothing special really. It just makes me happy that since it’s -ber already.. I can now enjoy all my seasonal favorites. Music, food, etc.. there are a lot of seasonal things that are so good that it sometimes sucks because you can only use them during this season.

“My Grownup Christmas List”, it’s a christmas song–and my favorite by the way. If I play this song in a place where a lot of people can hear and it’s not yet christmas season.. everyone would probably think I’m insane but if I play this song now.. its okay because christmas season starts at semptember 1 for Filipinos. do you get my point?

This is kinda off topic.. but 3 of the shows I’m watching(Chuck, Grey’s Anatomy, Gossip Girl) will air their newest season this month and also some of the movies I’m looking forward to watch begins their play date this month. so this will be a MERRY SEPTEMBER for me!

toothy.

If a normal adult have 32 teeth in total, I probably will (my wisdom teeth aren’t yet develop) have 28. I used to wear braces because my teeth are a bit big for my jaw hence they crowd up. My dentist had to remove 4 teeth in order to fix the problem. So do the math.. 28 in total. Ideally, after the removal of braces you need to wear retainers. I did wear retainers but I think I only wore them for a month then I got lazy. And the result of not wearing retainers.. I got gaps in between my teeth. The gaps weren’t big though but its enough for food to stuck in and so I need to floss regularly to ensure I won’t have dental cavities.

Do you floss your teeth before you brush or after? Because I floss mine after and when I’m all done flossing there’s an urge for me to brush again. It’s a waste of tooth paste and water I know but I really feel it’s a must for me to brush again. I have tried before to floss first then brush but I felt that my teeth and the spaces between aren’t clean enough so I ended up flossing again.

Tooth pastes. We in the family use Colgate for as long as I remember. Colgate has a lots of kind of toothpaste which I already lost count off. Anyway we’re not much particular about the kind as long as it’s Colgate we’ll buy it. Apparently, what we’re using now is the Colgate whitening. I don’t like it. After brushing I want the fresh/cool feeling and this toothpaste doesn’t give that satisfying feeling.

Romeo and Juliet broke my heart

“Romeo” and “Juliet” two names that seems to be inseprable. Shakespeare is genuis(is he not?) because only a genius can make a reel fictional character real. Many do believe that Romeo and Juliet were real, that once upon a time in Verona there was a girl named Juliet who fell in love with a boy named Romeo and.. yeah.. they both die in the end. ‘Romeo and Juliet’ is indeed a good story, may be one of the best literary masterpiece ever written. But what I don’t understand is.. why is their story an epitome of a great love story? Seriously? They were too young. Juliet was if I’m not mistaken 13 and eventhough Romeo’s age wasn’t mentioned it’s quite assumable that it is close to Juliet’s age. Okay, let’s not go with the whole age doesn’t matter thing. My point here is.. they’re still at puberty. How will we know if it’s really true love or it’s just the hormones. Hormones can make you act based on pure urge and impulses. And another thing, in the end they both die which is heartbreaking! Maybe it’s just me but would you not prefer a happy ending than a tragic one? But if you’ll look in another way.. Romeo and Juliet probably will not be as memorable as it is now if they had a happy ending.

Old School is Cool

I’m a self-proclaimed techie. I like and love everything that is IN. I sometimes can’t imagine myself living in a world where technology doesn’t exist. But lately it seems my taste preference was a bit change. I still like gizmos but I really really like/want stuffs that were used before–things that you will rarely see in malls. I made a list of those “old school” things that I want. If you know a seller of any of the items please inform me..

My old school want list

Vinyl Record Player and Vinyl Records - I just love music.

Old Polaroid Camera - Polaroid are still manufacturing “instant photo” camera but I really want the old original model

Wax stamp - I want a signa instead of my initial because I have a very funny initials =D

Fountain Pen - I had one before but I lost it..

Random Formspring Questions

1. If you could go only to one restaurant for the next five years, which would it be?

     - Um, I can’t think of any in particular.. any decent chinese restaurant will do. 

2. One person you would go gay/lesbian for?

     - I don’t know.. 

3. What was your first paying job?

     - I never had a real job before but I remember  one summer an aunt asked me if I want to be a.. what do you call the person where you give your payments to? no, not a cashier.. basta yon– I worked for her for 2 days and she gave me Php500. This happened a long long time ago.. like 5-6 years ago pa.

4. Were you a Michael Jackson fan?

     - Not really.

5. Who’s the smartest person you know?

     - Ate Aminoglycoside! Of course that’s not her name.. I just call her that. Ate Aminoglycoside is one of our speakers during the review. She topped two board exams(Our board exam and Physician’s Board exam). 

6. Would you rather be a famous musician or a famous actor?

     -Musician.

7. Would you rather be rich or famous?

     -Rich.. then I could be famous for being rich?

8. If you could be a star athlete in any sport, which sport would you pick?

     -Volleyball. I was never good at this sport. well, I was never good in any kind of sport.

9. If you could ask God one question what would it be?

     -Hmm… I really can’t think of any right now.    

10. Would you rather vacation at the beach or in the mountains?

     -In the mountains. I’m not much of a beach person.

11. If you could be on one TV show which one would it be?

     -This is hard.. there are 2 shows that I want to be in with.. Chuck and Scrubs.

12. Would you rather swim in a pool or the ocean?

     -Pool. haha! It’s hard rinsing all the sand after you swim in the ocean.

13. Would you rather work at a large company or a small one?

     -Any, as long as they pay me well.

14. Would you rather be a zombie or a mummy?

     -Zombie.

15. Would you rather be really hot or really cold?

     -We’re talking about temperature here, right? Um, Hot! Let’s just say my cold tolerance isn’t that high.

16. What website do you spend the most time on?

     - Youtube.

17. Are you a morning or night person?

     - Morning person. Definitely!

18. Who’s the most overrated musician?

     - Justin Bieber? I don’t know, I’m just not getting into the whole bieber fever thing. His songs are catchy but…–  i’ll just leave it like that. 

19. What video game have you played the most?

     - Super Mario?

20. If you could eat dinner with any person, dead or alive, who would it be and where would you go?

     -who? ABELARDO DENNIS FLORENCIO HO!!!! where? anywhere as long as i’m with him! ♥♥♥ I will not put any explanation because the whole post might turn into an essay of me confessing my crush/infatuation about him.

21. What do you think was the greatest invention in your lifetime?

     -Internet. HAHA! don’t you agree?

22. How many languages do you speak?

     - 3-ish. English, Filipino, Spanish..pero solo un poquito.

23. Who’s the coolest person you know?

     -Ate Aminoglycoside. Feel free to call me nerd but I really think being smart is cool.. super cool!

24. What did you eat for breakfast today?

     - Nope, I didn’t.

25. If you could only listen to one song for the next month, which would it be?

     - Somewhere Over The Rainbow. It’s my all time favorite song.

BLOG LEAVE

on blog leave.

NOooo!

May retreat kami tomorrow.. overnight. Ayaw ko! Hindi naman sa ayaw kong magretreat.. ayaw ko lang mag-overnight. Ang creepy kaya nung retreat house ng school namen at 1 ride lang siya mula sa house namen. So pwede akong umuwi tapos balik nalang ako ng maaga the next day,, ang kaso hindi ata pwede yung ganoon. Hindi ako mtatakutin. Hindi lang ako sanay na may kasamang matulog. Weird ba ako? Ah basta, weird na kung weird. Ayaw ko talaga. yiih. What will I do? OMG. Argh! Ayaw ko namang gumawa ng alibi. Come to think of it retreat nga iyon tapos magsisinungaling ako para lang maka-uwi. Pwede kayang mag-absent? hay.. cross-out na pala yun dahil baka hindi pa ako maka-graduate kung gagawin ko yon. waaah.. Ang natitira ko nalang na option ay wag nalang akong matulog pag andun na ako.

Things to Bring/Prepare

-Cellphone(Fully charged): load it up with games

-iPod: make a new playlist. magagamit ko kaya ito? last time I check pinagbabawal nila ito

-Clothes: isa pa ‘to. anong damit ba kailangan?

-Toiletries: toothpaste!! lagi kong nakakalimutang magdala

-Towels: isa pa pala.. ayaw ko yung CR sa retreat house.

-Food: hala! hindi ako nakapag-grocery.. lagot ako nito. ang aga pa naman din call time bukas

you’re so wrong about me

It’s fascinating to see those people around me evolve in a way that I never expected them to be. Most of them change in a good way–they have a steady job, happy lives and basically contented on what and where they are now. Being classified as one of them is my only wish right now. I will be graduating soon, whew! It seems only yesterday that I first step in a huge university not knowing where to go and what to do. Honestly, after four years, nothing has change, I may be more knowlegable, much wiser than I was before but really nothing has change. I still feel that I am that freshman student lost in a big school. The only difference is that this time, I am not lost  in a four-walled lot but in a place gazillion times bigger than that, a place where there are no guards that gives you directions when your lost, no admin that constantly reminds you on what and what not to do and no professors that gives you step-by-step instructions. A place called life. It’s funny that I survived college, uncertain. Uncertain about my course, uncertain on million little things. I am completely aware that I don’t have a specialty, I may be good on some things but I was never expert on one thing. I don’t have that skill in drawing(unlike most of my cousins), I’m not good in writing, when it comes to communicating with others, I’m not good either and(a big shocker) I don’t do well in chemistry. But despite of that, I still chose a medical course, a course not only recquires me to take one chemistry subject but a course that demands me to take all different kinds of chemistry subjects–general chem, organic chem, inorganic chem, physical chem, pharm chem, name it, i had it and more importantly had overcome it. Looking back on those semesters that I’m taking those subjects there’s only one thing that I think “keeps me going”. It’s the attitude/belief that I can do anything. It’s an ambitious, ego-feeding belief I know. But up until know I still believe that I can do anything if I set my mind on to it. I have this thirst to prove something. A relative once told me that I should be like my parents. Be like my parents in terms of what?, Am I bad?, Have I done anything wrong for her to say that? That statement had been haunting me ever since. I don’t want to be my parents’ clone. I want to be somebody! Somebody who can do better than others, somebody who can surpass and even exceed all the expectations that are thrown at her, somebody who will leave an impression to everyone not because of her parents but because she is something.

To all my detractors, downers, and haters(there are any).. equipped with my positive attitude.. just wait and see. I WILL BE THAT SOMEBODY! SOON.

not my cup of tea

I usually blog about things I like.. this time I’ll talk about things I don’t normally do and like.

FOOD/DRINK

• I don’t drink coffee
• I can’t stand the taste of milk tea
• “Cloudy soup dishes” like sinigang aren’t appealing to me
• I prefer pancits than pastas
• I don’t eat kaong
• I only eat bellpeppers if it is a pizza topping
• I don’t have the courage to drink or even to taste processed tomato juice
• I only drink the juice of a “sago’t gulaman” and usually don’t eat the sago as well as the gulaman

PERSON/TRAITS

• I hate it when people dictates me on what to do
• It irritates me every time someone ask me to repeat things I said over and over. Its either their slow or their not listening at all.
• I hate it when someone touch/use my things without my consent
• I don’t like people who assumes what my reaction will be on a certain situations

RANDOM THINGS

• Not a big fan of social networking sites
• Don’t like reading books with “may-december love affairs”

Book Review: Vince’s Life The Wedding

I always say that I will make a review of my recently purchased books but i guess I never did, huh? And so, here it is.. my first book review(well, sort of like that).

Title: Vince’s Life The Wedding (Third book)

Author: Vince O. Teves

Publisher: Summit Books

Plot: The first book was about Vince and his first love, Andrea. The second was about moving on after losing Andrea and finding a new love in the person of Cat. And now, Cat broke up with him and he’s devastated once again. On the other hand, Connie is pregnant and is getting married to his Fil-Am boyfriend, Walter, in Las Vegas. Vince was hesitant to go at first because he was heartbroken and broke(he quit his job) but he did agreed to go in the long run. They leave Philippines and went straight to San Francisco where Andrea was. The plan(Spider’s plan) was to go to Andrea first and then go on to a road trip to L.A. On their stay there, Vince’s feelings for Andrea were awaken but his love for Cat was still in the background. Everything seems to go well until Connie informed them that Cat will be arriving soon because she also invited her to the wedding. Vince was left with no other option but choose between Andrea and Cat. >>FAST FORWARD>> Vince proposed to her and she accepted it. I won’t be telling you who he choose and why he chose her. See for yourself.. buy the book.

My Favorite line/Conversations:

” I like to think  that this could turn into love one day, but right now it’s not, and here we are again: I have to give you up again.” - -

 –

Connie(to Vince and Spider): I’m pregnant

Spider: Which one of us is the father?

 –

Spider(to Vince): I’m sure you’ve thought about it. You’re single. She’s single. You two can do what single people do when they’re horny.”

Vince: I honestly have not thought about it. ..At least not much.

The not-so-good points of the book/story:

- Almost all the chapter titles are movie titles. As much as I want to focus on the story.. the movie seems to play at the back of my head. It’s weird. Just like in the Ghosts of Gilfriends Past.. while reading that chapter all I think of was Matthew McConaughey’s accent.

- The driving part in America confuse me a bit. Aside from Andrea, who lives there.. It was never mention that Connie and Spider have international driving license.

Final thoughts: The book was nice.. as usual. Reading it gives you that feeling you get when you’re riding a rollercoaster. It makes your heart beat faster and on some point it can make your heart stop. If you liked Vince Teves previous books.. you’ll definitely like this one too. It’s real a page-turner.. I even skip breakfast just to finish it.(lesson learned: Don’t read books before breakfast). One last thing, I personally didn’t like Vince’s choice. I would be much happier if she chose *tooot*. But who knows, there might be book four and there he can be with *tooot*. ^_^

Testing..

finally.. na-access ko na din ang wifi dito sa school. 

I’m not on blog leave.. i’m just to lazy

I will update this blog more often.. I promise! I figured that when i’m at home doing my online stuffs.. i become too occupied that i can’t think of any thing to post. and so, i will try to post entries while i’m at school using my phone. i just hope that wlan from school doesn’t block i.ph.

team ewan! ftw.

all of a sudden biglang naging household word ang word na “TEAM”. well common word naman talga siya.. pero lately masyado ng ine-exaggerate yung talagang use niya. Bago ko sabihin yung huling tanong sa’ken about sa mga team-team na yan.. flashback muna. first time kung napansin na ginamit massively ang word na “team” ay sa twilight. team edward vs team jacob.. tapos sumunod ang team katrina vs team hayden tapos lately lang team jinky vs team krista. hay naku lahat nalang noh? kanina tinanong ako ng classmate ko kung “TEAM OO” ba daw ako or “TEAM HINDI” at isa lang ang naisagot ko sakanya..isang pasigaw na “Annoooo?!” bukod sa hindi ko alam kung ano ba yung tanong or issue na sinasabe niya ayaw ko din sumagot na hindi ko jinajustify yung sagot ko.

Question, bakit pag team ang pinag-uusapan laging tigda-dalawa lang? and kailangan ba talaga na dapat may stand ka sa mga tanong na ganoon?

hmm.. sabi nila dapat lagi kang meron piliin.. kasi kung wala kang stand sa mga bagay-bagay duwag ka, play-safe, etc.

yung saken naman(opinion ko lang po ito ha).. hindi kailangan all the time lagi kang may stand or may mas pinapanigan ka sa mga ganyan. what if yung choice mo wala naman doon sa mga yon or paano kung pareho kang may say sa dalawa. to sum up ang mga sinabe ko.. ito yung analogy na lagi kong ginagamit.. sa board exam nga kahit true or false lang ang kailangang sagot hindi lang naman a or b ang nasa choices.. laging may c(either) and d(neither).