bittersweet

I want to help.. I actually am capable of helping them.. but I can’t, I’m not allowed to. I feel so bad. I kinda wish I never knew about the situation in the first place. *not giving details about this*

Speaking of feeling bad, I’ve been feeling bad a lot lately..

here’s the thing, I’ve been turning down A LOT of job offers. It’s not that I don’t like to work or anything. I want to but not now.. I’m still working on my admission to grad school. I think its a pretty decent reason for turning down offers right? but in a way.. I can’t help not to feel guilty. I know a lot of people who are looking for jobs right this moment and here I am bashing offers that are knocking on my door.